Social Media And Real Social Life

Funny how I only feel like someone acknowledges my existence when I'm at home by using social media. It would be so different if I were in Portugal. 

"You like to show off don't you?"

Well...no, using social media it is the only way I have here to tell people I know I actually still exist.  I use facebook mostly to keep in touch with those that actually matter to me. It is sad, yes, but it's the harsh truth. In a foreign country with no one even remotely like me, I have no other choice. And the place I live in also doesn't help. There's simply no opportunity to meet other people. I'm fine with that actually, I just really don't have no one here to "hang out" with. That friend, or that group of friends. Or perhaps, the people I already know to some extent don't really interest me. Because they don't have that many interests. Because I know I'm more amused if I'm alone rather then with them. It's too bad, because if there's person with original hobbies and games (not videogames) and different ways, or portuguese ways to do things, that's me. And I'm not bragging, it's just that from what I've seen so far.  

I love good challenges, hard things, things that make you push. Like sports (let's just add more 5 minutes! Let's just make the circuit once more! If I fall we loose!). Like learning languages (only 1 more word! Okay, one more!) I remember as a kid playing with my friends in the woods. Like we were scared with noises and would start running and just pretending we had spies or whatever coming after us. It was so fucking fun! We were scared, but we knew we were safe, so that thrill of fake danger just made us be scared and at the same time wanting to burst out in laughs. Oh the thrill! 

And there's also halloween when we form groups and after each other with eggs and water balloons lol. And during summer in school, it's forbidden but somehow we managed to make water balloon fights.And outside of school throwing them at cars randomly. And throwing rubbers from the ceiling were no one could see us at cars. Ah, fun times. Though according to my dad's stories, in his times kids were way more creative. And this is nothing. I was always a very straight kid, very conservative in the time to play. My friends cursed a lot, I didn't and that made me kind of an "outsider" because I just wouldn't break the rules parents had taught.

And now that I think about it. actually, I've been realizing that my favorite hobbie, and the one I lack the most is that. Thrill! Playing games with friends outside, games that push for your emotions. Not necessarily sports. 

I also remember using (or trying to lol) "walkie-talkies" with my cousins. We lived close (and still do, they actually live next door) and we could hear something as a matter of fact.

I miss having fun like this. I miss running, not as sports but out of this thrilling fear! Fear of getting caught! Fear of losing the game and having to be faster than the other contenders! Fear of being found! I get excited just by thinking about it! *_*

Well, then there's twitter.

Twitter is like your friend. In the train. Or when taking walks. Or when waiting in the line. Or when you're bored at some class and feel you could be wasting your time actually learning something you're interested.

I started using twitter with the purpose of registering what I read online. Just to feel like I read something. I felt bad with myself because my friend read and commented the news and books and I didn't so I started using twitter to get more information and be able to discuss things with them. And look, I've learned so much I continue doing it. I use twitter to read articles from websites I like, to read inspiring tweets and I use my personal tweets to keep my followers, if any (genuinely interested in what I post) and that's about it, entertained. I also like when I have to rephrase my sentences because of the character limit.

Probably some colorful news. Soon.

Have a nice weekend :)