Long time no talk. And the no-mobile-internet-experience

Today was shopping and talking day. My friend wanted to buy souvenirs, and the whole day was pretty much spent seeing little stores. The rest of the time was spent just relaxing, at the cafe, just talking.

I bought this for myself.

Being with my Portuguese friend after so many months (the last time we had met was in February this year, in Portugal) is teaching me a lot about myself, the Japanese culture and the Portuguese culture. It feels good to realize so many things in such a short amount of time. 

I've come to understand that we portuguese act as a very, very united group, but we are allowed our individuality. And individuality (as in personality, do not mistake with individualism) is actually encouraged.

It was the first time in a long time I could actually ask questions to someone. About several things about life and have an honest answer. He is the kind of friend who you can trust, to whom you can speak about anything, without having to fear that he is going to tell other people.

I could finally talk to someone in real life about the changes I've been through. About the things I realized about myself since I came to Japan. I could finally open to someone, other than this blog. You know, I have found out things about myself I can't really talk in public, to people I don't trust.

And besides, he also has is own love problems and he also wanted someone to talk about it.

We went to Starbucks. Social caffeine (?) to remind us of our Portuguese habits.

Besides that, we talked about things like the school (mostly our course in Portugal and our study here in Japan), trust, betrayal, friendship and that kind of stuff. I miss talking about this. And omg being able to say jokes/puns in portuguese and having someone understanding them was also great. We talked about these subjects because his friends have different behaviors than our own. Some of his classmates from what I could see are very, very selfish and childish.

Since he is staying at a guest house near that area, after the cafe I came back alone. And I kind of felt my heart, I don't know, empty, but strong. It was the first time I felt this. A kind of peace. Or harmony. Or whatever. I don't know. It was weird. I was now feeling stronger, now that I was alone again. It was like I didn't have that energy "weight" anymore. It's kind of weird and even I don't understand.

But when I first met him again in a long time, two days ago I felt stronger, probably because I was so looking forward to meeting my friend again. But, you see? The complete opposite happened.

He's going back the day after tomorrow and tomorrow I'm taking him to see some more temples/shrines.

Alone time (taken some days ago).

One of the things I've come to find out I actually enjoy/need after writing this.

Me and the usual morning. Let the energy flow!

Coming back home, it was raining and I had no umbrella. It was raining considerably. I usually get very mad with rain, I don't like the feeling of it. But this time it was different. As I said it's like my heart was just calm and feeling nothing. I can't really explain it. But anyway. I went calmly to catch the bus. I first had to look it. I actually didn't know the way home (lol), I was in a place I don't go very often, so I have an excuse. But I soon found out the bus and came back. 

Nevertheless, I had this feeling, just looking at the city, I don't know how or why, but I felt kind like I belong here. I kind of felt like a citizen of this place.  

And changing the subject a little bit. I have no mobile internet for the past week and half. And that has made me realize I actually don't need the internet. I still don't know how I'm going to solve this "problem" because the company says nothing. 

I remember the first day was kind of a shock. But after that day that I'm kind of like in peace. I miss having the portable internet, don't get me wrong, but I know that I can live better if I'm not always checking my smartphone. 

It's like I have less stress. And time kind of feels longer. I can enjoy my surroundings better. Everything is more peaceful, calm. I want the internet back alright, but it's like I don't really mind if I somehow don't have it back.  

Good night.