When I was a kid I already had some big ambitions, but my dreams would often be discouraged by some people around me.
The first time I remember dreaming of something was one day, I was very, very young, I still lived in my first house, I should be like 3 or 4. I remember being watching SuperMan kiss his girlfriend. I think they were surrounded by the city, and I remember thinking to myself I wanted to go to a big city, full of lights. Always, since a very young age I've been dreaming about living in a big american city. I remember getting fascinated with businessmen and businesswomen on their suits, and their attitude, and their good looks and good life.
Other dream I had, always since primary school probably until middle school was to become a pokemon master lol.
And here's a proof. Don't know when I wrote this for sure, but judging from grammar, probably between 6-9.
Literally:
"Dad, I'm writing this letter to tell you I want to go to Japan to be a Pokemon Master. Please tell mom too. I want to go to Japan to know more about Pokemon, I want to know more than Mike and Renato (two friends of mine that time). If you let me go I could teach you how to know more than Mike and Renato.
To: "Dad's name", "mom's name" and also my friends, except "cousin's name""
lol!
Other cartoon related dream was to become a professional Beyblader, lol. My favorite Beyblader was Kai, hence having some friends call me precisely "Kai" (also because my other nickname is "Kainha" - given by my cousins when we were still babies, they couldn't spell my name correctly and that was how they spelled it) back at my hometown.
The next dream was probably becoming a professional soccer player. I admit it. I LOVE play soccer. It's one of the things I'm sure I enjoy the most, but unfortunately never really had people interested in doing it with me, though I did join my friends at school many times. I was also very inspired by an anime, Captain Tsubasa. This probably taught me many things such as keep going on, never giving up, rising up. This skill was not so useful for soccer (okay, it was useful in the physical education class! I was the best girl) but it would be later on, for example when I was learning japanese.
Mark Lenders was my favorite character.
Other dream was to have a job like my CSI idols. Ever since I was a kid I had this thing for cops. And CSI is more than cops. It's safer, they have guns, and they solve puzzles. I remember buying a pair of boots because I wanted to look more policeish. I also remember waiting eagerly for my science class in my 9th grade (I was 14) after having lunch after watching CSI. I was very interested in Science during that time because I remember we were studying things like DNA and from where people get their characteristics like eye color from.
The dream of coming to Japan, know japanese I kind of already achieved it. But for that purpose, I forgot who I trully was, by giving up on everything I liked before for the sake of focusing only in japanese and get fluent as fast as possible.
Well now, I dream of having a job that makes me use what I know. Japanese, english, marketing/branding knowledge, social media skills. I want to be a leader. I feel I can be a good leader. I know I am a good leader. I know my worth. I know what I stand for. I know I give it all for MY people. I give it all for US to WIN. I want to make MY people HAPPY. I want to feel the gratification of letting someone go home earlier. Of giving a Christmas bonus. Of inviting everyone I work with to have a dinner/party several times a year. I want to make everyone related to me as productive as they can be, making them happy is the only way.
People = Happiness = Motivation = More Happiness = Productivity = Success = Happiness
Christmas is coming. I feel bad for not having anyone worth giving a present to. Because I don't know anyone to the point of knowing what they like or not. I also don't really have the means to be giving away presents but nothing feels better than giving something to someone you like.
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