Truth difficult to bear

I have inevitably been thinking a lot since I came here, I'm getting to know myself, what influenced me, and more importantly understanding that de facto those influences actually really had a big influence in my mental and even physical growth. I have been learning about my own culture. Comparing my culture to other cultures (mostly Japanese and Chinese and others I read about). I have been learning about my friends. How despite being from the same country we have different cultures. And how we created our own culture.

I became ignoramus before coming to Japan. I actually became intellectually stupid when I started dedicating myself to the study of the japanese language. I completely stopped watching western media (hence, ending up losing my standards, my idols, those that I saw on TV and tried to become since I was a child). I was obsessed with becoming fluent. I spent my Summer vacations since 2009 "studying" (in my own way) the Japanese language. I wanted to be japanese. I wanted to feel japanese. I wanted to speak perfect japanese. I loved Japan more than my own country. I loved Japan more than I loved myself. Naturally, along these years, and ever since the beginning that I, or better my body as a whole, subconsciously knew I hate to lose. This will to be the best japanese language student of my class kind of blinded me during the years I was there. All this will to be the best japanese language student of my class kind of blinded me during the years I was there.

Then I enrolled in a Master course. Where I'm learning more than ever. Because I want to. Because I want money. I want money to buy the things I like. I want money to spend in vacations and theme parks and games and paintball with my friends. I want a badass car. I want a badass house to invite my friends. I want dogs and cats. I want to create an animal shelter (like the big house we see in the "101 dalmatians" in the end of the movie, it is been a dream since I was a child).

My two japanese teachers are probably two of the smartest people I've ever met in my life. One of them has lived in several countries for several years, so I can only imagine her knowledge. No, actually I can't. 

Having said that, the image of real japanese people I had was these two japanese teachers. Needless to say, my standards were extremely high. 

And then I came to Japan. 

And overwhelmed I am with disappointment. I mean after all the hard work...!

The reason? Again, thanks to those teachers, I studied Japan thoroughly and so, everything I saw here didn't really surprise me. I had seen it all already. Sure, food is great.

See, as I said, I started studying, I started realizing about me and myself and my culture. Everything became clearer. Politics, religion, pop culture, control, education, etc.

Perhaps if I weren't an Asian Studies student and had came to Japan without previous knowledge I would indeed be very surprised and satisfied, but that's not the case. 

I might be saying wrong things in this post and is not my intent to hurt the Japanese feelings, so if I did it somehow I apologize. And of course there's also the possibility of my still ostentatious ignorance being limiting myself in this post.

Here's a post from Japan Times that shows something that makes my stay here in Japan a little harder to endure. Don't read it with sexuality in mind, but the whole picture.
Everyone has potential, and I don't like it when people's potential is being concealed for whatever reason by external forces. The same could also apply to China, and I'm guessing in the worst way possible.

Look to pop culture if you want to blame someone for A-Chan’s gay gaffe

"All art is political. All pop culture is political.

This idea provokes fierce opposition from many. Politics is dirty and discredited, they say, and art should be above politics; pop culture is entertainment and shouldn’t have to mean anything. These arguments are wrong.

All art and pop culture is political because it all serves someone’s politics. By challenging, reinforcing or even outright ignoring dominant ideologies and social norms, art and pop culture form an important part of the framework within which society is constructed. Anyone who has felt comforted by a song that recognizes their life and struggles, or who has felt alienated by one that seems to be speaking to them from a different world, has experienced music in its most basic political essence.

So when Ayaka “A-Chan” Nishiwaki of cheerfully apolitical electropopsters Perfume told the web site Blouin ArtInfo, “Overseas, there were more men than women, and also people who were neither!” before launching into an anecdote about a gay fan and his “girlfriend,” her comments and the reaction were just a more direct expression of a discourse that is constantly occurring in pop.

Obviously many of the group’s fans overseas were extremely offended by this, while others blamed gay fans for confronting Nishiwaki with their sexuality in the first place. The debate in Perfume’s overseas fan community basically divided along familiar lines, with the universalists, who believe in certain immutable cultural values, on one side and the exceptionalists, who celebrate and defend Japan’s right to be different, on the other.

Nishiwaki herself clearly didn’t mean anything bad by her comment — on that at least the exceptionalists are surely right. The journalist who carried out the interview, Blouin ArtInfo’s Robert Michael Poole, stands by the translation and puts the remarks down more to naiveté and cultural awkwardness [The Japan Times has not heard the original Japanese recording of the interview]. What the piece shows is someone with no real frame of reference for dealing with openly expressed homosexuality struggling clumsily to find appropriate words. The cause of the problem is a culture that fails to provide people with that very frame of reference.

Pop culture and a lot of mainstream art in Japan is complicit in reinforcing norms that exclude discussion of anything that doesn’t fit a certain narrow set of mainstream values. Most contemporary J-pop has the same basic message of “friendship is good, peace is good, follow your dreams, I want a boy,” etc. which while inoffensive in its own right, limits the the range of experiences discussed in the broader cultural sphere.

Singer/model Kyary Pamyu Pamyu is often compared to Lady Gaga, but while Gaga frequently challenges mainstream cultural norms, Kyary’s songs are all essentially advertising jingles and the more challenging or fringe aspects of her music are mostly abstract, aesthetic ones (the flipside of that of course is that based on those abstract, aesthetic criteria, Kyary is far more musically interesting than Gaga).

Whether through social conservatism on the part of Japan’s culture industries or a simple race to the middle driven by market forces, all of this serves a particularly narrow vision of what Japanese culture and values are. Pop music is essentially the megaphone through which the big lie that Japan is a single homogeneous entity is propagated to its population.

It also contributes to a cultural ignorance about how things are perceived by different people. It pushes pop culture and mainstream art into the abstract and aesthetic realms in order to satisfy its need to push boundaries, with experimentation in form sometimes creating genuinely striking music, art and fashion — but also leading to a situation where popular boy bands such as Kishidan, can appear on TV in full Nazi SS uniforms and not understand how that’s problematic.

A lot of this comes down to political correctness, which at its worst can be a form of Orwellian newspeak, but at heart really just means thinking about the effect your language and imagery will have on other people. Language that appears to deny gay people their right to a gender is a horrible thing for many to hear, however well-intentioned. Artists should have the freedom to say whatever they want, but they should at least know why they are saying it.

Opening pop culture up to more voices would give people the tools to make those judgments and lead to a greater cultural consciousness that would enrich rather than stifle Japanese culture."


...Ignorance is bliss.