Definition of "feeling"

This post is really sudden, but as would say in japanese, "shouganai", or something like "it can't be helped". There are actually several reasons I'm writing this post.

The first one is because, lately when I wake up, the first thing that comes to my mind is my middle school times. I'm having nowadays some of the "feelings" I had back then. Hence the need to write. I want to tell myself that story. And I want to write something different from the last posts too. And I have no one here I feel that I can share these things with. If I had, I probably wouldn't be writing. It's sad, but true.

Second. Yesterday's post was a little mind blowing. I'm a critic by nature when I see things are not right. And I can be very cruel when I criticize, but when a situation happens all the time, and I'm not able to confront directly because of cultural differences, I "can't help" but write.because I don't want to hurt the other person's feelings. At the same time, I am very benevolent and I forgive things easily if people prove to me either through words or actions that they are sorry. But I need to see and "feel" their true intentions, and not just "guess". It's like I have these two lines. One for anger and one for benevolence. Crossing the line from anger takes a lot of time, and "effort" from the other person, I don't get mad easily, but when it happens I turn into a cruelly ironic person. Unfortunately, I think I can't do it in japanese. The lines wouldn't flow naturally as they would in portuguese. As for the line of Benevolence, well, that one is very low, and if the person is honest, it's like there's no line and we are back to normal as before.

So I burn my frustrations through writing. Here. This pseudo blog, or diary, whatever you want to call it.

Third. It's almost 9am and I don't remember the last time I wrote in the morning. Plus it's raining so I can't take my usual walk. And lately, I have so many followers that I follow back in twitter that I can barely see the feeds I really want (news on business, tech, etc). So that I've been using an app on my smartphone called "feedly" that is even better than twitter. And feels good! Feels good to read in the train or bus. Not sure why, but doing this while I commute brings me a feeling of "nostalgia". I guess because I usually enjoy reading the news the most when I'm coming back home. The it's the satisfaction from reading the news in an appealingly beautiful app and the joy of coming back home from school. Just like I felt some years ago.

If you somehow read my tweets (@ayupt) you might have read things on japanese language, on marketing, books, Japan, China, brands, zombies, Buffy the vampire slayer, etc.

Well happens that I'm reading two major books now (more than two actually). One is about differences between cultures and the other one, that I started past Friday, about Brand Management. So I came up with questions like "What is the definition of Marketing?" or "What is the definition of "Brand?". Having these question in mind I decided to create this post. This is the forth reason.

And wow. Just out of reasons I could make this a post. :p

Now, I'm going to give my slangish definition of "feeling" and I will then compare it with a real definition from a dictionary. I have a "feeling" (haha) that I will be using the word "thing" many times. So be prepared for my basicness. So, from my experience and as a limited writer, here it is.

(My definition of) Feeling 

(lol, I "feel" like it could be the title of a school test's essay)

-That thing that you feel when something happens as a trigger. Could be anger. Could be love. Could be joy. Could be agony. Could be irony (could it?). Happiness. Sadness. Loneliness. Could be...anything.

-The thing that you feel, but never really stop to think about it. Or you only think about the major ones.

-A state in which the person's brain "clicks" and you start "feeling".

-That uncomfortable "feeling" you "feel" when a drop of rain goes down your back during cold weather.

-That thing that makes you buy things. Because having those things will make you "feel" good. Or more self-assured, or stronger. Or cooler. Or hip.

-That thing you want to feel, the rush you feel in halloween when running away from the house where you just thrown eggs, the rush you want to feel when you play "real life games" with your friends, because it's so funny.

-That thing you feel when you really discover what's going to happen next in the book or TV series or whatever media you are enjoying.

-That thing you feel, when you look at the cool Nike snickers the person next to you is using.

-That thing you feel when you are looking forward to be with someone. That thing you feel when you can't be with that person. That thing you feel when you are finally able to be with the person.

-That thing you feel, when you deliberately give yourself as a reward once a week, thus making you anxiously wait for that day of the week to come.

-That thing you feel that hurts your heart when, you watch, for example, an animal suffering, or how should I put this, that thing you feel or your heart feels when you see blood. Like, in that moment, when you feel your heart and you get instantly weak.

-That thing, that makes you act x in a determined moment, and y in another moment.

-That thing that it's constantly dictating how you act and how you speak. That think that defines your mood for and undetermined time.

-That thing you feel, you you don't know if you're being played by someone. This makes you have two tendencies to think. Good and bad. Your mood in relation to that person swings very often.

-That thing you feel when you decide you've taken enough and no longer care.

-That thing you feel or want to feel, when you wait for your best friends after school, when you gather at one's house and play GTA, or Tony Hawk, or Carmageddon, or Pokemon or whatever game you like.

-That thing you feel when it's a sunny day and you have a blue sky and lively green trees around you.

And now I feel like these lines could perfectly be the work of a pre schooler -.-

Feeling (now according to the FreeDictionary.com)

1.

a. The sensation involving perception by touch.

b. A sensation experienced through touch.

c. A physical sensation: a feeling of warmth.

2. An affective state of consciousness, such as that resulting from emotions, sentiments, or desires: experienced a feeling of excitement.

3. An awareness or impression: He had the feeling that he was being followed.

4.

a. An emotional state or disposition; an emotion: expressed deep feeling.

b. A tender emotion; a fondness.

5.

a. Capacity to experience the higher emotions; sensitivity; sensibility: a man of feeling.

b. feelings Susceptibility to emotional response; sensibilities: The child's feelings are easily hurt.

6. Opinion based more on emotion than on reason; sentiment.

7. A general impression conveyed by a person, place, or thing: The stuffy air gave one the feeling of being in a tomb.

8.

a. Appreciative regard or understanding: a feeling for propriety.

b. Intuitive awareness or aptitude; a feel: has a feeling for language.

adj.

1. Having the ability to react or feel emotionally; sentient; sensitive.

2. Easily moved emotionally; sympathetic: a feeling heart.

3. Expressive of sensibility or emotion: a feeling glance.

So...have a nice Sunday!