大阪 and こころ

went to 大阪.
it's completely different from 京都. makes me think that 京都 is a more conservative, but peaceful city. 大阪 on the other hand has a much more "variety" of people. it was the first time I noticed such a difference with city/people.

大阪城

 

me, a mexican and a japanese friend (they both studied in portugal)

ate "pastel de nata" for the first time in Japan. not the same...and expensive

グリコ

 I've been reading 夏目漱石's "こころ" as I've said before. I've been busy and going here and there so that it's taking me time from the book, but, in anyway, I still manage to read a bit everyday (even in the train, if necessary). I've noticed that, as I read it, I discover things about the heart, and read a lot of things to which I can relate, and while I'm reading those things, I start remembering what I've lived, and making connections of my "past" and my past's unawareness with my present and yet full and controllable awareness. Yes. Day by day I've been understanding myself a bit more.
And while I read this, I feel this need to 甘える because I make the so called connects and have the 見覚え that make me lose focus so I stop reading and start feeling my heart's vibrations and get in this 夢中 state that, I've felt many, many times when I missed ... when I first came here.

And I had never understood why some people, a lot of people prefer 田舎 to big cities. I think I do now. Yesterday I went to 大阪 and I could feel the heat and vibrations from the the people that were incessantly passing by.

But actually this is quite...enlightening. I feel that everyday I can construct and design myself a bit more because everything is new to me, what I'm feeling and learning to feel is all new to me. It's like I was (re)born and am learning everything from the beginning. Since I'm here I have "learned" so many くせ from people I know, like, way of talking, way of reacting, gestures, things to like, things not to like, etc. But I just do them naturally, it's not like I am forcing myself, it's more like I unconsciously do it.