Akemashite Omedetou Gozaimasu

...is what the Japanese say in the new year. 

In japanese characters it would be 明けましておめでとうございます！

Or in chinese 新年快乐！

And portuguese "Feliz ano novo!"

So, I'm guessing that by now almost everyone in the world is already in the new year, 2014!

I have a lot of hope for this year... I feel like 2013 was the discovery and 2014 will be the affirmation. So, let's see!

2013 was a year of radical changes. And I guess I kind of matured. Not yet 100% (if that's even possible), but sometimes I literally feel I am. My gestures change, my way of thinking changes, my way of looking at things changes, etc. That's when I'm at my best. It's like I enter in this kind of empathy with the world and everything seems attainable.

But other times I feel more like a kid, insecure, afraid of doing many things, that are kind of basic. This used to happen rather frequently when I first came to this house. It's better, much better now. But still have it sometimes. I had it today.

When I feel insecure I am such a different person. I don't like feeling insecure. I now know how to change the mood. But when you are in the "insecure" mindset it's like the whole world is against you. And you suddenly get weak, incapable, etc.

I like watching a tv show called Two and a Half Men. And I recently started watching season 9. In season 9 the main character Charlie is literally killed (oh Charlie Sheen...beating up your wife...shame on you...) and is replaced by Walden Schmidt (Ashton Kutcher) and while watching this new character I started seeing a terrifying emotional resemblance with myself. So that's why I started asking questions again, because every time I see Walden I start thinking. And this is why I enjoy watching TV so much lately, because I analyze the characters and learn a lot from them. 

So I'm looking forward to seeing the character's emotional development! 

So I was doing some research to look for "solutions" and came up with this link explaining what that is. Up until reading the article I knew I felt it. I knew I could change. But I also was afraid of being crazy for having it. But apparently its normal. So I'm wondering...

What does "growing up" mean? Is it making these mood swings disappear?

So yeah...making these mood swings disappear is probably the ultimate 2014 resolution. 

That and reading at least 1 book/week! =D

Happy new year World!