A "grown up"

Today, not absolutely sure but, I think I felt like I was an adult for the first time. Had never thought about it. About being over 18.

But lately I've been think about so much stuff, and learning new things just by recognizing and thinking about what I'm feeling.

Also. I had to buy a new computer. I was using a netbook on a daily basis (and many hours a day) for the past 3 years. It was just 2 days ago, but I feel it has added some more quality of life. Just like the computer screen I was given some weeks ago (improved my TV time greatly), it just adds more comfort to my place.
My netbook was getting worse day by day and it was getting hard to work, to watch tv series, and to use its regular functions "fluently".

Also. Since I recently moved to an apartment, that's also news. New neighborhood. New places to walk. New places to buy groceries. I liked my old place the best when it comes to walking though.

Also. Got recently a bicycle from a friend who went back to his country. I'm the kind of person who cannot be all day inside the house. I need to go out some times a day, need to refresh my head and let the room breath too. So the bicycle recently has become kind of like a new best friend.

Yes. I recently felt for the first time (well, now that I can recognize it), the so called loneliness. I never really understood what it was for sure. I still think I don't completely understand it.

Not only because I was in this relationship (not even sure if I can call that) without even realizing, but because I miss being in it. I never understood what it was. I never understood the reason why, with some people, very few I've met during my life, why I would just go back, couldn't get a topic of conversation, would be nervous all the time. I now do. I never understood why, but now I do. I feel to a certain extent that I wasted my teenage years, but I also feel that this delay on my mental growth will also allow me to understand everything better, to absorb everything better from now on.

I'm addicted to new. I had a very settled frame of mind before coming here. I couldn't do nothing that was in the limits of the mindset. Now I'm very different. I mean, I want that comfort zone, at least with people, with relations. But as for the rest, I want constant challenges, I want to be challenged, I want to challenge those challenges. Because, I think, I believe I can do it. I trust myself.

Am I a grown up?