First, the pictures I took in 神戸, a young, european style, cosmopolitan city. LOVED IT. This is the kind of place I want to work in.
鬼 （目が・・・・）
It's been 3 months and 5 days since I've arrived in Japan. And the first semester (semester? huh?) is already going to its last weeks. This is getting harder and harder, simply because I'm making some shocking discoveries about myself and the world. But it's like they say, if you continue on your comfort zone, you won't develop, so I'm taking all this with a positive attitude, as far as possible.
So I found out that I can't control my emotions. I don't know what I'm feeling. And indeed I find myself at times feeling something, but don't know what. Sometimes I feel mad without knowing why. Sometimes I feel empowered just by listening to music. I don't understand.
For the past days that I've been having constant ups and downs, loads of reports and no やる気, I'm also being the go-between a portuguese and a japanese enterprise, and kind of got a proposal to do translation, and want to go to China for 2 weeks in february. Don't get me wrong, I'm kind of used to dealing with stress, but it's a lot at the same time. What's funny is that, when I'm empowered, whatever the workload might be, I feel like I can do anything and actually get to be a lot more efficient those times.
But actually, I don't have that much workload. In fact, I tend to fear this kind of works (reports) because I always thought that my essays in the portuguese class were really weak, and that fact kind framed my mindset. I think I'm getting better. Even though I have no feedback from the japanese teachers (I wish I had, it's like, should I change the writing style, do I have any 癖 I should correct?...), I think that within some months from now my report writing skills will be far superior in the japanese language than in portuguese.
I should stop writing this late... -..-
Hey, I'm Kiddo from Twitter.
返信削除Thanks for sharing a little bit of what's going on in your trip to Japan. You are where I want to be. I have no idea about the pressure which is surround you, but I believe that responsibility and a sense of accomplishment is something irreplaceable in life. Vivacity.
I'm curious. If I may, where are you from? Also, do you know about Miggs Bryer's personality test? I took the test online (it's free) and got surprised. The precision about the test was amazing and the description was very accurate. If you have time and want to try ou, here is the link: www.mypersonality.info
Bye :)
Hey Kiddo, glad you enjoyed it! And thank you for reading it!
返信削除I'm from Portugal. Aren't you from Brazil?
The pressure and all that stuff I'm feeling now, it's turning into a great lesson, so I'm just accepting it as it were so. If for some reason I fail to do something, oh well, I'm still alive, and it's not that that will compromise my future.
Still don't know for sure what to do in the future, and this is also giving me headaches, but one thing is for sure. the moment I'm back in Portugal, I'll miss Japan dearly. But anyway, my future job HAS TO be something related to Japan and Japanese language or at least with the areas I'm interested in, otherwise, life has no meaning.
Thanks for the link! I'll take it!
I actually forgot to write about the english language. will edit later ; )
返信削除Apparently I'm a strategist:
返信削除INTJs are introspective, analytical, determined persons with natural leadership ability. Being reserved, they prefer to stay in the background while leading. Strategic, knowledgable and adaptable, INTJs are talented in bringing ideas from conception to reality. They expect perfection from themselves as well as others and are comfortable with the leadership of another so long as they are competent. INTJs can also be described as decisive, open-minded, self-confident, attentive, theoretical and pragmatic.
Oh, I see. Sometimes you tweet in portuguese, don,'t you?
返信削除Wow, Kobe is a really beautiful city. I'm impressed. Japan, indeed, is a magnificent country, such as in culture as in its people.
Now, I understand perfectly what you said about the question of don't know what to do in future. I mean, as a living. A job or real job, whatever. Sometimes, the uncertain future give me some headaches too. But, then I remember. The only thing we have is the present, right here and right now. And I try to work in what I am passionate about and keep pursuing my dreams. In life, unexpected situations will happen. All the time. And when those situations happen (for good or evil), most of time we will be not ready. Not 100% ready. So, I realize that so much worrying is not necessary. If we can't control the future, even being an INTJ (just kidding), shouldn't we worry so much? Let's spend this energy that we use worrying in a more effective way: fighting back. Having a good posture, flexible mind and positive attitude. At least, let's try :)
Do you about Danny Choo? He is what I call the ultimate very successful otaku. He wrote a post about Japan. If you have time and wish to read: http://www.dannychoo.com/post/en/26094/How+Discovering+Japan+Changed+My+Life.html
thanks!
返信削除and I kind of agree with what you say. live the present, right here, right now. I try not to think a lot about the future but I have no choice, because I really need to make a decision.
and yes, sometimes I tweet in portuguese ;)
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